1.28.2009
Gently, gently... I have a delicate heart.
Every year I dread this week with the kind of dread I felt as a pretty, pigtailed girl facing the first day of intramural co-ed P.E. in the fourth grade. Tomorrow would have been my mom's 48th birthday. She has been absent for 9 years. Dead for 9 years. So why is it that every year this week I have the sensation of my own heart splintering? It cracks and weeps. My skin crawls. The slightest intimacy, the softest emotional touch rubs me raw and leaves me bleeding. I plead so quietly only I can hear, "Gently, gently... I have a delicate heart."















